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Wow its been over a year since I have updated here. glad to see this place is still around. maybe I will try to hang around a little bit more
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[17 Jul 2005|09:18pm] |
I am feeling oh so lonely for some odd reason..
I am off to see the new Wonka movie...
yeah.
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[15 Jul 2005|09:34am] |
I will be returning to this place. to write. I have grown disappointed in LJ for many reasons. this will once again become friends only journal, and will be my secret place. for those of you that care comment here to stay.
girl is back on the old deadjournal.
and to start it off..I share a writing, I made up last night..
Untitled Memory
breaking glass underneath my nails.
I can sense you silently waiting to make my demise.
I ward away your empy stare and continue to breathe..
then without a word of caution I give into what I do not need
I feel your hair brush against my skin and once again I have lost,
the void opens wide and I fall into its familiar grasp.
unwanting to what I see, I feel so bare standing there,
with a wish I breath again my last breathe of despair
the next will not be so giving, the next will be oh so shallow.
my eyes are piercing and you my friend are dead inside me..
unable to see past your own disgust, I know you will not see me go,
or nor will you care, but you shall see how little effect you have had.
and I will breathe once again, and forget you ever even existed.
just a space in time that ticked till I finally exploded..
I cant even remember your face, nor if you even had a name..
You may think I will never forget, that I will always know..
outside my mind and in my heart, I never even knew you..
so unable to forget someone i Never knew would be obscene to think..
and with that I breathe and you die in that hallow place I kept you..
xoxo
aloneindarkness
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[14 Jul 2005|04:03am] |
I must say I think the new DJ layout is GHEY!
I havent even written in my lj for a week, due to some asshole decided to talk about my shit, outside the LJ land..L O S E R.! GAH! looks like only a few people and I mean a few people on my DJ are still around or alive..sad..since this was my first online journal. but the new layout really bugs the shit out of me..looks so damn cheap..I hate looking up and seeing some stupid skull with a pencil in its mouth. blah! I think I am gonna start trying to write in here more. I finally updated my profile from living in south dakota to here, portland oregon..I have lived out here a year officially now. maybe this can be my secret journal.
so those who want to be added, speak up now!
xoxo
Aloneindarkness
also I am on myspace, like a junkie whore
www.myspace.com/aloneindarkness
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[05 Feb 2005|10:17pm] |
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Is there anyone out there
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[24 Jun 2004|04:14pm] |
a land of greys and colors
swirled into a vibrate
pool of love and pain
love as painful as this
should be condemned into
an abanoned warehouse
without it that vibrate ray
of love that comes from your
eyes would die along with me
with it, you can feel the
million of knives poking
at our already naked heart
in those eyes i feel
the pain and what i have done
in those you cannot hide the truth
now lay down my love, lay down
and let me show you the love that
those eyes have hungered for
let us love till eternity
starts over and the world ends
let me be your everything as you are mine
in those eyes i stare and die
in those eyes i feel my love
in those i see you, and i see me..
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He held my hand as i bled..
yet he walked away as i died
unfeeling to the cold around
unnerved to the feeling of dread i should feel
with a hateful curse you quinch my fate
i roll over to see the death that awaits on the other side
unsaved to die to the empty soul
without love i walk away forever
uncaring to the world you have built
saddened by the death of those eyes
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Everything seems so right
Yet everything feels so wrong..
Regret and Anger filled into ourselves
unknown of which pain will come next
and what outcome it shall bring
unable to breathe under the pressure of hurt
dwelling into myself unable to move,
staring at eyes unable to cry
wanting to know what turn is next
uneasy feeling of never being able to know
sitting alone thoughts echoeing
as i watch with agony as this love dies
xoxo
aloneindarkness
remember i am on lj now! so add me there if you are on there!
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| long time so here is a pic for you..no longer gonna be friends only, not here enough |
[21 Jun 2004|02:18pm] |
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new pic..yay!
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[18 May 2004|04:59pm] |
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i hope everyone on here is doing good..i am never on here anymore..i am on LJ all the time..and have met a lot of cool people..are any of you on there? add me
a1oneindarkness..yes with a number one..let me know..
i do miss some of you..you were the original friends of me and my online journal.
xoxo
aloneindarkness
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[25 Oct 2003|06:47pm] |
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i had to make this a friends only journal against my wishes, but if you like what is here that you can see and like my profile
write me a comment if you wished to be added to my friend list and i will add you!!
aloneindarkness
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| I AM STRANGLY ARROUSED BY THIS... |
[22 Oct 2003|03:17pm] |
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[18 Oct 2003|02:28am] |
 Your Sexual Power Animal is a Praying Mantis!Aggressive, dominant, and ruthlessWhen it comes to sex, it's all about your needs You get off when you want and how you want You could care less what your partner desires And when it's over - it's on to the next victim! What's Your Sexual Power Animal?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva |
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[07 Oct 2003|02:39pm] |
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today just sucks....work just sucks today!!! i am sick i left work early yesterday cuase i was sick, and i am off work now waiting for a ride, my ex is picking me up... my boy is pissing me off my house is a pit i am not there very much he does absolutly nothing, i am so pissed today....rrrrrrrrrr....i want to go scream and punch someone....rrrrrrrr....so fuck people today.
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[05 Oct 2003|10:17am] |
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I like this picture, it looks good blury.
( Come on CLICK ME!! )
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[02 Oct 2003|12:27pm] |
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i am so happy!!! i am work right now, and i just found out i won a $200 gift certificate to the mall!! i am so happy so shopping shopping for me me!!! which is cool cause since i have been saving up for my trip i havent been able to go shopping so this will rule!! off to hot topic for me cause i saw a few things i absolutely wanted last time i was there!! i am so happy...but back to the phones now, love you lovlies!!
aloneindarkness
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[01 Oct 2003|07:18pm] |
CHINESE PROVERBS
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Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone.
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Man who run in front of car get tired.
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Man who run behind car get exhausted.
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Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
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Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright
organ.
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Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok.
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Man with one chopstick go hungry.
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Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.
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Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.
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Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
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Panties not best thing on earth! but next to best thing on earth.
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War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
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Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
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Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
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It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
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Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
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Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
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Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
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Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
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Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
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Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
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feeling sick today...mentally and physically...i feel my love running dry and for no reason except myself...
seems sometimes the sex is what there is and nothing more..
seems sometimes i am all alone and i am so scared...
seems sometimes that no one cares even as i am screaming at the top of my lungs...i feel so lost...
i came here (DJ) to find people to communicate with that would understand me and i have, now its just the rest of the world i have to worry about..
orgasms are not real if they will someone please give me one! cause i waiting and horny for one...
my beautiful daughter is sick, my ex is looking good, my boy is great but cannot be trustd due to my own awareness..
yes so is life and so i write...
aloneindarkness
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hello...long time since a post...been busy with work, i started another part part time job to help save up for my vacation in november to Los Angeles, i cannot wait to go!! yay!! i am working at the local halloween store called spirit, and i get a 30% discount which will be great for buying tons of halloween stuff yay!!! and i can have my piercings and wear black lipstick and wear costumes, so yes, i am gonna be non stop working, oh the joys...at work right now dont wanna be here my throat is sore and it makes it so hard to talk on the phone for 8 hours, blah... had a good weekend went out when i shouldnt of, bad rachel bad bad bad...but my bestest friend in the whole world has joined us on deadjournal ![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) theravenslizard so yes she has no friends yet, so that is her and she rocks my socks :P but back to the phone for me, i shall post more later....bye kiddies
aloneindarkness
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[26 Sep 2003|02:44pm] |
Here is the flyer for the upcoming halloween party that my boy made, and my best friend is responsible for the pics of me on it...take a lookey lookey!
( Flyer )
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