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a1oneindarkness @ 2006-09-28T02:24:00

2006-09-28T09:25:41Z

Wow its been over a year since I have updated here. glad to see this place is still around. maybe I will try to hang around a little bit more

a1oneindarkness @ 2005-07-17T21:18:00

2005-07-18T04:19:27Z

I am feeling oh so lonely for some odd reason..

I am off to see the new Wonka movie...

yeah.

a1oneindarkness @ 2005-07-15T09:34:00

2005-07-15T16:39:53Z

I will be returning to this place. to write. I have grown disappointed in LJ for many reasons. this will once again become friends only journal, and will be my secret place. for those of you that care comment here to stay.

girl is back on the old deadjournal.

and to start it off..I share a writing, I made up last night..

Untitled Memory

breaking glass underneath my nails.
I can sense you silently waiting to make my demise.

I ward away your empy stare and continue to breathe..
then without a word of caution I give into what I do not need

I feel your hair brush against my skin and once again I have lost,
the void opens wide and I fall into its familiar grasp.

unwanting to what I see, I feel so bare standing there,
with a wish I breath again my last breathe of despair

the next will not be so giving, the next will be oh so shallow.
my eyes are piercing and you my friend are dead inside me..

unable to see past your own disgust, I know you will not see me go,
or nor will you care, but you shall see how little effect you have had.

and I will breathe once again, and forget you ever even existed.
just a space in time that ticked till I finally exploded..

I cant even remember your face, nor if you even had a name..

You may think I will never forget, that I will always know..
outside my mind and in my heart, I never even knew you..

so unable to forget someone i Never knew would be obscene to think..
and with that I breathe and you die in that hallow place I kept you..

xoxo
aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2005-07-14T04:03:00

2005-07-14T11:08:10Z

I must say I think the new DJ layout is GHEY!

I havent even written in my lj for a week, due to some asshole decided to talk about my shit, outside the LJ land..L O S E R.! GAH! looks like only a few people and I mean a few people on my DJ are still around or alive..sad..since this was my first online journal. but the new layout really bugs the shit out of me..looks so damn cheap..I hate looking up and seeing some stupid skull with a pencil in its mouth. blah! I think I am gonna start trying to write in here more. I finally updated my profile from living in south dakota to here, portland oregon..I have lived out here a year officially now. maybe this can be my secret journal.

so those who want to be added, speak up now!

xoxo
Aloneindarkness

also I am on myspace, like a junkie whore

www.myspace.com/aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2005-02-05T22:17:00

2005-02-06T06:17:14Z

Is there anyone out there

a1oneindarkness @ 2004-07-06T14:25:00

2004-07-06T21:25:39Z

happy bday aesthyrian

poetry...

2004-06-24T21:15:44Z

a land of greys and colors
swirled into a vibrate
pool of love and pain

love as painful as this
should be condemned into
an abanoned warehouse

without it that vibrate ray
of love that comes from your
eyes would die along with me

with it, you can feel the
million of knives poking
at our already naked heart

in those eyes i feel
the pain and what i have done
in those you cannot hide the truth

now lay down my love, lay down
and let me show you the love that
those eyes have hungered for

let us love till eternity
starts over and the world ends
let me be your everything as you are mine

in those eyes i stare and die
in those eyes i feel my love
in those i see you, and i see me..
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He held my hand as i bled..
yet he walked away as i died

unfeeling to the cold around
unnerved to the feeling of dread i should feel

with a hateful curse you quinch my fate
i roll over to see the death that awaits on the other side

unsaved to die to the empty soul
without love i walk away forever

uncaring to the world you have built
saddened by the death of those eyes
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Everything seems so right
Yet everything feels so wrong..

Regret and Anger filled into ourselves
unknown of which pain will come next
and what outcome it shall bring

unable to breathe under the pressure of hurt
dwelling into myself unable to move,
staring at eyes unable to cry

wanting to know what turn is next
uneasy feeling of never being able to know

sitting alone thoughts echoeing
as i watch with agony as this love dies

xoxo
aloneindarkness

remember i am on lj now! so add me there if you are on there!

long time so here is a pic for you..no longer gonna be friends only, not here enough

2004-06-21T19:21:51Z

new pic..yay!

a1oneindarkness @ 2004-05-18T16:59:00

2004-05-18T22:00:41Z

i hope everyone on here is doing good..i am never on here anymore..i am on LJ all the time..and have met a lot of cool people..are any of you on there? add me
a1oneindarkness..yes with a number one..let me know..

i do miss some of you..you were the original friends of me and my online journal.

xoxo
aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-25T18:47:00

2003-10-25T23:55:19Z

i had to make this a friends only journal against my wishes, but if you like what is here that you can see and like my profile
write me a comment if you wished to be added to my friend list and i will add you!!

aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-23T14:41:00

2003-10-23T19:41:15Z

You are Baby!

Which 'House of 1000 Corpses' Character Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

I AM STRANGLY ARROUSED BY THIS...

2003-10-22T20:17:39Z

You Are A Nipple Piercing

You're crazy and uninhibited, even with people you just met.

You're likely to be bisexual - and take both sexes at the same time.

You've got the boobs / pecs of a supermodel -

And all your shirts are a size too small!

What Piercing Are *You*?

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a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-18T02:28:00

2003-10-18T07:28:25Z

Your Sexual Power Animal is a Praying Mantis!

Aggressive, dominant, and ruthless

When it comes to sex, it's all about your needs

You get off when you want and how you want

You could care less what your partner desires

And when it's over - it's on to the next victim!

What's Your Sexual Power Animal?

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a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-07T14:39:00

2003-10-07T19:39:58Z

today just sucks....work just sucks today!!! i am sick i left work early yesterday cuase i was sick, and i am off work now waiting for a ride, my ex is picking me up... my boy is pissing me off my house is a pit i am not there very much he does absolutly nothing, i am so pissed today....rrrrrrrrrr....i want to go scream and punch someone....rrrrrrrr....so fuck people today.

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-05T10:17:00

2003-10-05T15:24:47Z

I like this picture, it looks good blury.

^ i really like this one

okay so that was my night...i had more but the camera fucked up..grrrrrrrrr

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-02T12:27:00

2003-10-02T17:28:54Z

i am so happy!!! i am work right now, and i just found out i won a $200 gift certificate to the mall!! i am so happy so shopping shopping for me me!!! which is cool cause since i have been saving up for my trip i havent been able to go shopping so this will rule!! off to hot topic for me cause i saw a few things i absolutely wanted last time i was there!! i am so happy...but back to the phones now, love you lovlies!!

aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-01T19:18:00

2003-10-02T00:18:24Z

CHINESE PROVERBS
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Virginity like bubble, one prick, all gone.
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Man who run in front of car get tired.
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Man who run behind car get exhausted.
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Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright
organ.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok.
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Man with one chopstick go hungry.
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Man who scratch ass should not bite fingernails.
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Man who eat many prunes get good run for money.
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Baseball is wrong: man with four balls cannot walk.
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Panties not best thing on earth! but next to best thing on earth.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It take many nails to build crib, but one screw to fill it.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who drive like hell, bound to get there.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who stand on toilet is high on pot.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who live in glass house should change clothes in basement.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man who fish in other man's well often catch crabs.
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Man who fart in church sit in own pew.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Crowded elevator smell different to midget.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-10-01T13:38:00

2003-10-01T18:41:06Z

feeling sick today...mentally and physically...i feel my love running dry and for no reason except myself...
seems sometimes the sex is what there is and nothing more..
seems sometimes i am all alone and i am so scared...
seems sometimes that no one cares even as i am screaming at the top of my lungs...i feel so lost...
i came here (DJ) to find people to communicate with that would understand me and i have, now its just the rest of the world i have to worry about..
orgasms are not real if they will someone please give me one! cause i waiting and horny for one...
my beautiful daughter is sick, my ex is looking good, my boy is great but cannot be trustd due to my own awareness..
yes so is life and so i write...

aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-09-30T12:27:00

2003-09-30T17:30:11Z

hello...long time since a post...been busy with work, i started another part part time job to help save up for my vacation in november to Los Angeles, i cannot wait to go!! yay!! i am working at the local halloween store called spirit, and i get a 30% discount which will be great for buying tons of halloween stuff yay!!! and i can have my piercings and wear black lipstick and wear costumes, so yes, i am gonna be non stop working, oh the joys...at work right now dont wanna be here my throat is sore and it makes it so hard to talk on the phone for 8 hours, blah... had a good weekend went out when i shouldnt of, bad rachel bad bad bad...but my bestest friend in the whole world has joined us on deadjournal theravenslizard so yes she has no friends yet, so that is her and she rocks my socks :P but back to the phone for me, i shall post more later....bye kiddies

aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-09-26T14:44:00

2003-09-26T19:46:47Z

Here is the flyer for the upcoming halloween party that my boy made, and my best friend is responsible for the pics of me on it...take a lookey lookey!

naughty quiz :P

2003-09-26T18:55:36Z

You Are a Perfect Lay!

All sorts of guys long to hook up with you, but your standards are set high.

You don't just give it up to anyone, but when you do...they can't get enough of you!

You have a knack for pleasing and receiving, and sex with you is never boring.

Only problem is ~ they all seem to be falling in love with you...

What Kind of Lay Are You?

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Song of the moment

2003-09-26T18:41:40Z

IN THE SHADOW OF THE VALLEY OF DEATH

We have no future
heaven wasn't made for me
we burn ourselves to hell
as fast as it can be
and I wish that I could be a king
then I'd know that I am not alone
Maggots put on shirts
sell each others shit
sometimes I feel so worthless
sometimes I feel discarded
I wish that I was good enough
then I'd know that I am not alone
Death is policeman
Death is the priest
Death is the stereo
Death is a TV
Death is the Tarot
Death is an angel and
Death is our God
killing us all
she puts the seeds in me
plant this dying tree
she's a burning string
and I'm just the ashes
she puts the seeds in me
plant this dying tree
she's a burning string
and I'm just the ashes

-Marilyn Manson
Holywood

Just some Stuff I am Selling on Ebay..

2003-09-26T17:46:46Z

I want everyone to meet Lilith..

2003-09-25T02:42:18Z

Here she is my beautiful Rat!!! Lilith...

aloneindarkness

a1oneindarkness @ 2003-09-24T12:31:00

2003-09-24T17:33:57Z

blahhhhh..feel like shit today...went out and handed out fliers for the upcoming halloween party..yay!! you are all invited!!! umm at work today, really wanna go home, but i shouldnt cause i need the money!! need to save up for my california trip. just bought our tickets, for me, zoe and jeremy, the other day, so yes i shall be flying, which i hate!!! so that is paid for, now to save up for disneyland, and all the cool hollywood stuff i shall see, which i will buy tons of Lucille Ball stuff, i cannot wait to be able to put my hand in her handprints, yessssss....
so that shall be fun!!! i cannot wait...but i must get my cute butt back on the phone, oh the joys! bye bye

aloneindarkness